Journal 8

Ever since a week ago, it looks like a full joyful 7 days. Everyday, it seems like I had lots of activities to do. Daily activities such as Jogoya dinner last Wednesday with everyone, then coming to damansara at Bryan's (my lovely lil cousin bro) since last Friday, attended Clive's event at Zouk last Saturday nite to support Jason, had swimming session with Chun Wei/Harry then dinner with Yvonne, class on Monday, Squash with Bryan then class today and meeting Belle tmr. Its great to keep my mind occupied with events and stuff like these... At least I won't be thinking too much.

Problems are meant to be solved. Sooner or later, I might have to face it again. I can say, for now I'm doing good, but I know this will not last. The only thing I know can last is when I'm able to settle this. Memories does haunt when certain things came across....

Having a wonderful week is meaningless without the company of these people... I take this opportunity to give special thanks to Isabelle, Chun Wei/Harry and Yvonne.

"Monday Blues"

So much so for "Monday Blues" for this week's Monday. Here are some small events that me and a wonderful girl that everyone is fond of did.

As for the picture of the day
Introducing

AH Belle aka Isabelle

We had our exam in the morning, then headed to her house to pick up something and had our lunch at plaza damas, Hartamas. Basically, the whole day's major activities were held there. This wonderful friend of mine did not do her assignment, so here comes Terry the hero to save her again. Starbucks was the place right to do homework / assignment. While I was finishing up the reference page, she had her time zipping her ice blended coffee while picking up a few magz to entertain herself. She came across a page that introduces several recipes for some simple cooks with the dish titled "potato love" (pic available at my FB pictures). She felt a sudden interest on cooking that dish and decided to go groceries shopping to prepare the dish later on. Due to her iPhone's "great technology" the camera failed by having a suckie lens and the missing of a bluetooth hardware, she had to literally copy down the info's direct from the page to a piece of paper.

Here is how she does it...



After awhile, interference.....



After all, its up to my K770i to be the main tool for the day. Clear pictures with Sony's Cybershot's advantages. :D

Work was done and Starbucks doesn't seemed to be a nice place for chatterz... We headed down to a tea shop to continue on with stories related to my journals. A pot of rose tea and a 3 ply sandwich would just suits in perfect! (It was her idea)

I serve

She drinks

I drink



slurppp....ahhhh..... Nice!

The sandwich was huge with bacon, lettuce, cucumber, tomatoes and sour apple sauce within. We shared half each.



Judging by her expression, the sandwich looks delicous

With me biting slowly so that she can capture a pic of me eating it :S

Seriously, this pic can cause misunderstandings

Tea was over and its time to head back. Something was wrong with the AutoPay machine. While waiting for them to fix it, we realized that we almost forgotten to shop for the materials to cook. There wasn't any Cold Storage in the mall, but there was a super market in there.

Carrots?

Lettuce

Choosing very professionally on which oyster sauce to use...

Well, it seems like everything's almost done

Before we leave, a snapshot to keep this memorable memory.

Time to go, time to leave...bye bye

Till the next activity

Journal 7

These few days.....everything seems to be going fine. Probably its due to the companion I received from my fellow friends. I fully utilized my time by keeping it occupied. I'm all okay for now.

"Too much of something is NOTHING"

This phrase is a very strong one. Always keep that in mind. It applies for EVERYTHING! To further explain this phrase, I'll give a simple example to illustrates what does this means.

Everyday, parents gives allowance to their child. The child uses the money like how its normally spent. For one day, the child does not receive the money...go to ask parents for it and they said "no". The child will automatically feel pissed with anger and frustration.

This story is telling that the child did not appreciate the generosity from the parents by giving daily allowances, in fact the child had bad feelings for it because the child thinks that its a must for parents to give money. By right, appreciation should be shown to the parents daily.

The main point I'm trying to tell is the treatment we give to others and how should we show gratitude to others. Sometimes, we treat a person good once in awhile is better than always treating them good if the person does not how to show appreciation. We do good does not mean we want the person to treat us back good. All we wanted is for the person to appreciate! That's all.....Tell me if anyone disagree with this. But of course, I don't mean to tell you to stop doing what you are doing. In fact keep it up! Just remember to know what you are doing exactly and everything should turn up fine. As long as we learn to appreciate, I believe the world would become a better place.

Well, for some might think that I'm hinting on someone or something here...I can tell you straight, NO. Its just what I wanted to share for quite some time.

Journal 6

What the hell?!! This morning I shook myself awake from a dream. I shouted "get me out of here! I don't wana be here!" while I shook head hardly from left to right and right to left. Its not a nightmare with eerie or scary monsters appearing. This is something more reality. It was like a preview of the future that what would be the possibilities if I had done what I was planing to do. Being scared and pulling myself out from it means I can't accept it. I'm too afraid to accept it. Should I continue? or I should stop it right now? I'm very confused.

Guided by those who cares for me, both their assumption of the response are negative. What should I do now? Furthermore, there was this dream....

Here I can assure to everyone that I am NOT okay. The things I do, the activities I'd carried out and the events I attended are all a form of distraction. I've tried to apporach, tired to talk, tried to make conversation but everything seemed to be not in favour to me. I'm really lost right now.


Looking at the dark sky makes you daze,
Looking at you makes me amaze,
Loosing sight is a sign of turning blind,
Thoughts are controlled by the great mind.

Journal 5

Everyday, I hope it will get better or maybe easing up by a little. How come this feeling never ends? It always comes back whenever it flashes across my mind and ending up affecting my emotions. I just wish that time can be turned backwards so that I can go through everything again, but this time without any mistakes. I would know what are the right choices, expressions, words and emotions to coop with situations. There were two movies that really touched me when I watched them. Its about having second chances in life. I really wished that I can have that chance.

1st movie: If Only.

This is a movie with a very romantic plot where the guy did not appreciate his girlfriend until she meet an accident and pass away. The time lenght in the movie is only two days. On the 1st day, the guy was very busy with work, stuff, meetings, friends and all. He did not really pay much attentions to his girlfriend. At the end of the day, she was really upset and left the guy in a taxi. Just about a couple of metres away, that taxi was crashed by another vehicle and caused the girl's life. He regretted deeply with an excruciating pain penetrating his heart where a wound that will never heals took its place. The whole incident took place just within a day. He was then miraculously given a second chance to do all over again on that specific day. Similar incidents of the previous day took place where he lost his precious love. He tried everything in his power to stop them but soon to realise that those occurrence occurred again. Realising that avoiding is useless, he loved his girlfriend like there was no tomorrow. At the end, he took over his girlfriend's death place as he scarified himself for his love. Indeed, this is a very touching story.

If Only that I were to be given a second chance, I will not repeat my same mistakes and take all preventative measures to prevent history from repeating. I shall be condemned if the same things reoccur. We can only learn from the past. It will be useless only if we don't learn from it. Just like the incidents that took place during the 1st day.We do make mistakes, the most important thing is that he learnt them and applied what he learnt on the 2nd day. He knew he ignored his GF's feelings. He knew he did not treated her well. The main key is where he gets to tackle those mistakes by doing his very best to his GF. Too bad in reality, there is no such thing as turning back time. Life is freaking cruel where once its done, its forever.

2nd movie: Click

This comedy flick hit the cinemas in 2006 starring Adam Sandler. I believed that most of you all had seen this movie before. For those who hasn't, its a bout this man who puts his job no.1# Everything in his life was all about his work until he neglected his family. One day, he felt like his life is moving so slow and wished that he had a universal remote control to control everything in his life. His wish was granted and was told to use it wisely. Soon, he start experimenting with that remote to find out that it is really a useful tool. He can skipped whatever he doesn't likes and gets the end result of it. Due to what he had done with the control initially, it automatically programs itself and start controlling the occurrence according to whatever it he had done. It skipped his children's growth time, skipped his romance with his wife, skipped his attentions towards his parents and many more. The remote piratically took over his life until the day he dies. His last words towards his son was to take care of his sister and not to repeat his mistakes. To his ex-wife is written on a tissue " will you love me tomorrow?" with his answer "forever and ever". Lastly, and international sign language (the middle finger) to his wife's current husband. Surprisingly, he woke up to find out that it was just a dream. His plans totally changed and did whatever he can to prevent that incident from happening. Another second chance granted.

Once again, people only learn from the past. The past is what makes up the future. If there was something wrong in the past, we do better in the future. In the movie, there was a projection to the future so that he was able to see / foresee every possible thing that will take place if he continues with what he is doing. If I could foresee what I was doing back then, I can GUARANTEE that this WILL NOT happen. I believe that we could be happily talking to each other right here, right now! Remember, life always sucks. Life was not intended to be nice. Seriously, how I wished that everything can be just like how it used to be now.

Honestly speaking, I really regretted for my past mistakes, mischiefs and misbehaviour. That is why my previous journal entry was about CHANCE.

Note: These journal entries was intended as a diary for myself. It is made public today for those close to me to learn from my mistakes so that simliar incidents will never happen to you.

Outings and Birthdays

Every now and then, whenever I switch from 1 uni to another...is where I gain new friends. This is how my circle of friends expands! :)

Here are some upates on classmate's birthdays and outing activities with classmates at SEGi.

Rachel's 18 @ One Utama

Cutting cake time....

U see, she just turned 18 this month. Me and Belle are in our 20's.

The cake from Belle

And look again with us standing straight :S
(Actually, we are the tallest in the group)

So after we celebrated with her, we decided to walk around the mall (One Utama) and caused the following pictures to be taken.

I found a spot where the light was bright shining down from the ceiling. Here is Belle with a pose

Us from head to toe



Another model like posture :P

A week later was another friend's birthday. He wanted to lay low... I saw him posted sadly on his FB status "Happy Birthday to me". Sounds so lonesome...awww....~~~ Yeah, I was also the last day for classes. Here we go again to OU for lunch at TGIFridays. Honestly, I almost forgotten it was his birthday again until someone mention about it. It stroke me right on target, I asked the waiter to do the TGIF birthday thing.

Videos are available at my facebook page. These are the photos of Tray Yeo's 18th Birthday

Without noticing while everyone are preparing for the video for him



Group photo



His TGIF cake

After the meal, its time to get him a present from all of us. While hanging around, Mao decided to check on his body weight, blood pressure etc etc.



Analyzing



The results I don't think its really that promising.
Finally, we got a sling bag for our B'day boy.

So these are for some current updates. Till the next updates~~

Journal 4

Do you believe in CHANCE?

Its a word mainly divided into three category of meanings
The following visual illustrates the types of chance means

One mistake does not determine a person's fate.
One damage does not signifies damnation.
One word does not insult.

Yes! The things we had done may be wrong in some visions. But the value of giving a chance is priceless. Thus, appreciate your chance well as no figure on the cheque can replace it. Conclusions are made after all inferences, hypothesis and theories are proved. So please do not shut your doors, leave it open so that CHANCE can take place.

I knew what I had done was truly the biggest mistake that I ever did. I should not have done such a disgrace. But I hope that it won't determine and signifies who I am forever. I wish that I will be given a chance to do it all over again once more.

I wish, I pray for a chance~~~

Journal 3

There is no Mr. Perfect in this world except GOD (if you believe in one). That is why there is always the phrase "no one is perfect" whenever you see some one did something wrong. The best method to solve the problem is to minimize whatever wrong doings you have done. Try not to make mistakes as often. Be extra careful the next time or simply just guarantee that there will not be a next time.

I would say, perfection is not impossible. It is possible when you set it as your minimum standards. Falling and failing often occur in our daily lives, if that fall hurts deeply and the pain is really excruciating... It is not the end of the world. Remember to know where you fell and how you fell, then you get back up from there. Keep your eyes open so that you will not repeat the same mistakes. Ultimately, "the pain is worth the fall" when you succeed in whatever you do.

Journal 2

Technology these days makes life very convenient. I'm specifically noting the Internet here. You used to be able to access it whenever you are at home or at the cyber cafe, but then...think again, these days we have lap tops, communicator, PDA, iphones and more. If there aren't a wifi connection around, there is always the GPRS or the 3G connection.

What I'm trying to say here is the phrase "out sight, out of mind" can hardly take place compared to the time it used to be. Just a simple click and there you are, online. Or perhaps pressing a few buttons on the phone, again you are accessible to the E-world. So what can you do when facing such circumstances?? All I can say is to just confront it! It won't be easy but at least we tried. It took me more than three months...but now, I think avoiding is not a solution as the result is being haunted by it. I should embrace whatever my feelings leads me.

Remember that the world is ruthless,
Confronting with wisdom will never be meaningless.

The rod is useless without a reel,
Act and react according to how you feel.

I'm no poet, but I hope my poems mean something to both me and you. It the way that I can release whatever that lies beneath my thoughts.

Journal 1

I woke up quite late today. C'mon, its Sunday! Although I slept at 1 a.m plus does not mean that I can't wake up late~~ A text msg supposed brightened up my day but a call darkened it. The moment of brightness lasted for less than 4 hours. Again, all the complications kicks in before Yvonne told me to keep my mind setted straight! And yes, it is true that I have a mission! Why think so much? KIS is my new theme.

An easy way keeps the mind at ease,
Away from complications means simple.


At times, I would use my favourite quote "this is what friends are for" whenever I helped a friend and they said thank you. I started to think, I would go so far out for a person and when I needed such assistance, no one is there for me. I do not wish for any repayments from them but I just wish that someone can help me when I'm deeply in need. Recently I get to feel the meaning of this quote myself.

When the path leads to nowhere,

A friend will always be there.

Blogging is about expressing feelings

Today, I changed my template back to something very basic. This means bye bye fancy blogskins. The main theme here is simplicity! My mind had been tremendously complicated all these while.

Keep It Simple (KIS)

I realized that I had been neglecting my blog for quite some time. There were entries as few as a post in a month. I feel like its time to get back up and start typing due to the influx of emotions rushing through me. I know this might sounds a little emo to existing readers, but think again, isn't the purpose of blogging is to express one's emotions? Well, I did that a long long time ago until the blog's purpose became a webpage of updates of recent activities to my fellow friends out there overseas.

Maybe this activity will just be temporary, I don't know. What I'm going to do is to introduce a series of journal containing the emotions and feelings I have for the day. Therefore, whenever a title is titled "Journal" means it is not update posts but an expression post.

Since there is such distinction, I had considered of opening a new blog to write about it. Think twice, what if all these are over? I believe that it will be left untouched and closing it will be a dumb idea as every thing you do leave a footstep behind. It will then be a valuable tool someday. Thus, I will use this blog, also my one and only blog for all activities.

The reason I'm posting this is to tell you all that Terry is still Terry. Nothing has changed. Perhaps a little troubled. Thats all!! :P

Welcome OCTOBER

FINALLY, Sept is gone. I do noticed that many people like that month, but not for me this year! I hated it! This is because of what had happened to me Obviously... Now, we are in the month of the Tourmaline stone. Its a very beautiful, eye catchy precious stone as an accessory.

Ok, done with the introduction... For recent upates, here are whats worth blogging about.

New phone!

and its a SE K770i

A nice phone, with a standard 3.2MP camera. This phone was inpired to me by Kana.

Happy Mid Autumn Festival

A Mooncake that signifies the Full Moon. This festival is to be celebrated with family and it falls on the 8th month day 15th on the Chinese Lunar calender. I had mine with my parents and thier friends and my friends. Chun Wei came over to my house to have a steamboat dinner with red wine and then followed by some leftover liquor...

Selamat Adilfitri

Raya, comes once in a year (sometimes twice). Our Muslim friend's main festival! But again, festive celebration these days are no longer celebrated by one religion of respective ethnicity alone but together all ethnic group as a whole.

So, how did I celebrate the Raya Holidays? Here's the short story about it:

Initially there was a plan...but then, it din't succeed. So, I made a last min trip headed up to Penang as John Tan was already there with his family. We met up, then went for cluubing at SS at Jln Penang. The next day was mostly spent on water sports, movie, food etc. The last day was food and CC at Nibong Tebal.

I'm not gud with photo editing, try to notice that VIOS, look at that stupid guy sticking his head and arms out like a dog peeing thru the car window...

After the water sports,

Yep! It was my idea to take a group photo

These two fella are RAMBO wannabes

Followed by testing their skills and power in sum Jap game

The muscle ache soar from Jet Ski-ing lasted for days! We had problem waking, getting in and out from the car..don't even mention about running :S

After the trip, I stayed at Ipoh for the week for work till I returned back to Rawang last week.

Last Wednesday @ SPACE (The Loft downstairs)

Me, Harry and Yvonne had dinner together. Yvonne had this event work at Space. The event was something about promoting Kent ciggs. In order to attract lots of people and increase sales of ciggs, they hired these group of event chickz like Yvonne herself and Swee Yi and many more both known and familiar faces.

We had some prob entering there as it was for "invited" guest only. I say screw it! I dun believe I won't be able to enter that stupid club.

Since we were there inside the club, here is how Yvonne looks like

e2 in Class

This is my "mau yiong" in class, nthn to do with loads of boredom

So here are some stories I have to my fellow friends...

~~Till the next post....